Guilt and withdrawl

Today I'm feeling both guilt and withdrawal. I am feeling guilty because my sweet Natalie Rae has an ear infection at 6 weeks old and withdrawal because I am without a computer till later this week. (Right now I'm typing on my husband's laptop that he brought home from his office.) Sweet baby Natalie has had a little cold for quite a while now...when she came home from the hospital Abigail was sick and it didn't take long for Natalie to catch it. She seemed fine though...until Saturday morning I wasn't worried. Saturday she woke up with a little cough, a crackle in her cry and her cry just seemed different. So I took her into the Saturday clinic and I couldn't believe that she had an ear infection...no wonder she has been fussy! The doctor said it's really rare for babies to get ear infection in the first couple months and even more rare for a breast-fed baby. I felt terrible...how long has she had it I wondered? I had been writing off her fussiness as typical newborn fussiness or possible colic and here she has probably had an ear infection for at least a couple of days. Great mommy moment!!! On a positive note she seems to be feeling MUCH better already, she's been on antibiotics since Saturday and Tylenol seems to be helping a lot too. Seriously though I don't want to go through this whole ear infection thing all over again. I feel like I just got off this roller coaster with Abigail and now it's Natalie's turn. I wish I could just get her tubes now and be done with it.

I am also feeling quite a bit of withdrawal from my laptop! My husband needed to buy a new computer for one of his employees and I graciously volunteered to give him mine, so then I could get a new one. I thought that was pretty nice of me. :) My new one is ordered but won't be here till later in the week and although I can pretty much do anything on my phone, it's just not the same and I don't have the patience to write a blog post on my phone. I am making the change from PC to Mac and am quite excited. I feel like a big nerd for being so excited but whatever, I don't care.